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[21 Jul 2006|06:59am] |
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I shall be going to my moms for 2 weeks without interweb access =) whatever shall I do!!
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| In which being alone is all one knows.... |
[18 Jul 2006|03:00pm] |
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A time for us - Nino Rota |
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I fear my summer has only been filled with absent friends and isolated thoughts. This is going to be just like last summer, then I shall go back to school and nobody will know who I am. This isn't the way I planned my highschool years. These are suppose to be the best years of my life, aren't they? Then why have I been forgotten about by those who I once thought were the best people on earth, knowing that they would never forget about me...
What did I do wrong?
I know I am just another fuck up that someone can say, "If I were any other friend I would have just forgetton you."
Well it looks like you did in the end...
Well I am sick of this, I wonder if anyone knew my true nature, if they would pity me and try to make me happy? Or if they would continue to use me as the last resort.
"Those who do not complain are never pitied."
-Jane Austen
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| Broken Record |
[18 Jul 2006|03:32am] |
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Just one more drink And then go to bed.
You stared at your glass As I emptied my head.
I said that I'm sorry You said that's a shame.
I'll blame those boys With those sweet christian names..
I'm planning for closure With guilt and remorse
You long for moments When love was a source..
And if you're not happy Why do you stay..
Treacherous answers part lips and you'd say...
"oh, this never felt like home"
And you said: "oh, you never left me alone"
And I said: "oh, I would've started to drown"
This record broke on its own...
Surrender or nothing, I'm giving my best.
By ripping what's left, From your half empty chest..
Tonight I'll be honest, Tonight you'll be brave..
It's all that I wanted, It's all that you crave..
You're watching my face, My tears are a strain
You're heart makes a fist, And it's bruising my brain..
And if I'm so happy.....why do I say all these things that
linger, rot, and decay..
And you said: "oh, Christ hang up the phone.. "
And you said: "oh, I guess I've always known"
But I said: "oh, never leave me alone"
...this record breaks on its own......
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| Everytime I blink I have a little dream... |
[16 Jul 2006|07:38pm] |
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You look so fine - Garbage |
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Everyone needs a palace to escape to. Where they can be treated like the center of everyone's world, the joy of their lives, the ray of hope left in the mess of darkness. A palace with high, high towers so no one can reach me. With guards that ward of evil and only allow in my castle my knight in shinning armor. My prince charming. He vanquishes over all wrong and would fight for me until he had no more life to do so.
Everyone needs a secret euphoria. Everyone needs a once upon a time.
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[15 Oct 2005|10:07am] |
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Well I have created a new journal to supposedly discover myself. Long story perhaps later.
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awake